So, now that my assignment is done. I’ve decided to keep the blog going cause, why not. Even though not many people will actually read them. I don’t know my grade on the assignment but I passed yearbook with a 97% so I’m guessing it went well.
Okay. So remember a few months back I wanted to be a hairstylist. I had wanted it since I was 13. I made a pretty big deal about it in my creative post. Well I don’t know if that is for me anymore. And I’ll be honest with you I don’t know why however I think it had something to do with the skills competition. I had a skills competition for my school board last week and honestly I didn’t do as great as I hoped, even though I practiced on my mannequins every chance I got. I’m not necessarily giving up on it because I didn’t do well. But the whole process was extremely stressful. So maybe I’ll do hair as a side job or a part time thing. So I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself now. I’m glad I applied to other programs other than hair. I also applied to child and youth working, social service working and personal service worker. But honestly I don’t know what I’m going to do.
I live with so many kids and I realize that sometimes I can have a temper
but honestly I don’t know what I’m going to do. I’m at a crisis. I love kids though. I think child and youth would be good for me but I don’t know. I’m just glad I have until May 1st to officially make up my mind.
I’ll be brutally honest right now. Because I’m such a homebody now, I can’t wait to party and stuff in college since I’ll be a few hours away from home. But just because I am so ready to party doesn’t mean I’m not going to college for the right reasons. I keep thinking I have lots of time to think about my future but in reality I literally only have a month and a half and seriously need to make up my mind before I end up in a shit load of debit that I have no idea how I’ll even pay it back, while also not knowing what I’m going to do with my life.
My search for a part time job continues but still no luck. I’m almost 18 and I’ve never had an actual job. All I want is some money to pay for college and to stop asking my parents for things. I want some more independence. I feel bad asking my parents to pay for things all the time. Yes people say that “they’re your parents they’re supposed to until you’re 18” but honestly I know my parents have so many kids and what they do for me they also have to do for them. Also the clock is ticking. In a few months I’ll be 18. And they do a lot for me. So I’m still trying really hard to get a job because I don’t feel right asking my parents for money. I don’t want them to think I’m lazy and just sit on my ass all day but they also know that I’m trying to get a job too so. Another thing is that this year is so expensive. Not just cause of college but because graduation and prom. I don’t know how much the ceremony is going to cost or anything else. I know prom tickets are going to be at least $100 but I don’t know where I’m going to get money for that plus a prom dress…
I also have to buy my own euros for when I got to Portugal this summer. Which is totally fair. I just don’t know where I am going to get money for it. There aren’t enough side jobs for me to buy 600 euros. I decided to skip the grad trip with the school because not only did I find out about it 2 weeks after the deposit was due but I also need money for more important things and since I still don’t really talk to anyone I think it would be pointless for me to try to bond with people I barely know and will probably never see again after high school. Honestly I don’t even want to go to prom because I’m trying to save money for college but my mom says that I have to go to mine because she didn’t go to hers and in this way she is living through me. But again I don’t know anyone who would I sit with. Nor do I have a date. I had a backup friend date with a friend from my old school but he has a girlfriend now so I don’t feel right reminding or asking him again after I asked him in like December. I also asked another friend of mine from London and he said that he’d probably be working so that’s most likely a no too. So I’m stuck in a rut and just don’t want to go.
Anyways I’m going out with my family right now to see beauty and the beast. And I’m so excited. Belle was my favourite when I was little. My sister is literally named Isabella because of belle. Yea I’m a crazy Disney fan (mostly just beauty and the beast though) I love it so much that I made a family thing out of it. This is the first time that my dad and I are actually going to the same movie at the same time. And it’s my youngest brother’s first movie. ANDDD I also invited my aunts and uncles because I’m that much of a crazy beauty and the beast fan. 2 of 5 of my uncles are coming which also means 2 of 4 of my aunts are coming and 2 of 9 of my cousins are coming (even though 3 may be there in spirit since I have 3 cousins that passed away as babies).
Anyways this was just kind of an update on my life right now. Oh and I still haven’t finalized my grad quote if you were wondering. But I’ll keep you updated from time to time and just kind of make rants or whatever about random things. There might be a post about the beauty and the beast movie. I don’t know. We’ll see.
But keeping being a beginner. You know the quote.
Scratch that… I’m not done this blog post yet. It is now 11:20 at night. I just got home and changed into pajamas and whatever but regardless I pretty much just got home from beauty and the beast. And I have to say I am absolutely in love with it. I won’t give away too many spoilers but there are new songs and new scenes and you hear about belle’s mother and you learn who the enchantress is. I loved this movie so much. Some critics say it’s over hyped and over rated cause the animation isn’t a new thing and that “people can do it on their computers” but honestly I couldn’t. I wouldn’t have the patience to. I am so in love with it I haven’t loved anything more in my life… except my family. Best movie I have ever seen but again that depends on your taste. But I’m a big kid at heart and I want nothing more than to be a princess like belle… I’m totally kidding but when I was a kid she was my number one role model. That’s why I named my sister after her. Belle is a strong, fearless girl. She’s determined. She wants to learn and is smart. She knows she’s different but she embraces it. And that’s what i wanted to be. That is also what I wanted for my sister, That’s why her name is Isabella. she is also a really amazing singer– belle, not my sister.
Although people say it’s bestiality and stalk Holmes syndrome I honestly don’t believe so. The whole message is that looks are deceiving. And to fall in love with heart and mind. Not body. (Which a mystery lover may be involved in my case… or at least I hope a potential mystery lover… it’s complicated) you never know who you could fall in love with…
However I’m actually going to head to bed after a long day with my family and some extended family. I’ll probably edit this in the morning so for you it won’t be a fresh post like right from when I’m writing it fresh but again you haven’t heard from me in a month or so. But then again I really only think my yearbook teacher will read this… not that there is anything wrong with that. I guess I don’t really want this big to be over hyped like some famous person or whatever cause then there is pressure to always be writing. But like I said. I’m off to bed. Good night internet.
Remember the quote… yea ill insert it in here now… you may begin being a Disney fanatic if that’s what you got out of this. Or you can begin to learn that it isn’t too late to start over… or begin to learn that it is okay if you don’t know what you want to do yet… at least if you haven’t made a deposit yet.